Maximum EFFORT
Can’t Handle This by Bo Burnham
I don’t want to be a “Debbie Downer,” cause the world definitely doesn’t need anyone else bitching and moaning on the internet. You know how they say that it takes more energy to frown then to smile. Its true. I’m just too tired to be sad. The current state of the world has drained all the joy and motivation from my soul. Although, I probably will never die from it, it still sucks bad. The last time I felt this deflated was when my mother passed. As a matter of fact, I still haven’t fully recovered from the fatigue and discomfort. Never mind depression and anxiety.
Survival is not up to me. Thankfully, time and learning to coop with mom’s absence have kept me sane and healthy. Some of my friends and family haven’t been so lucky. I can think of a few of my them that have been taken too soon by the state of the world. All of them varying age and background. All of them a tremendous loss. It’s drained me totally. I lack the energy for anything. I’m too tired to even be sick and tired. I can’t fight it and no matter what happens it all lingers like a terrible smell. Its like being drowned while doped up on cough medicine literally. Some day things will change but not today and probably not tomorrow.
But the end is nigh. An end to the days of sitting around with good intentions, and merry tidings. Now is the end of passively waiting for a solution to present it self. For those in the know, the word is go. Coming out of the other side of this is only guaranteed if you carry yourself to the end. If you do what you must and don’t look back. I’m resting now, waiting for my body to heal, but I’m also processing. Organizing. Evaluating what this machine of mine does and what it could do once its at full strength. Believe you me it will be back to full strength, Its slow going but its rising, not falling. Its fighting, not failing. and if you are out there stuck in the same boat as me and almost everyone else, just remember to breathe, rest, and get a helmet. Cause its dark outside, its full of dangers and if you are gonna make it, its gonna take some serious effort.